NEED ADVICE PLEASE HELP... PLEASE! DON'T WANT TO MESS MY LIFE UP SO DOWN?

SO if you love her and want to be with her then you need to let what she has done go. And sorry but you can not change in one mounth you think you have but you are only one shity day from falling back. What you need to do is take her to a NA metting so she can really understand what you were dealing with and take it slow. And you did put her in a very hurtful place so you have to see things from her point of view. What would you have done. It is going to take you a few years to really be your normal self agin I know that sopunds crappy but that is what drugs do to you. I have been clean for 4 years now and it is still hard for me to deal with the person I was on them. Good Luck and God Bless